Life Is Fragile

As much as I feel like my own life is hanging by a thread somedays, today is not the chance to talk about myself. Today is my chance to put my narcissistic, self-centered behaviour behind me and the chance to talk about others that are older than myself.

A really good, very close friend of mine who is a very special person to me is having problems today- one of his family members is passing away sometime today. I have no clue if it has already happened or not, but I’m hoping and praying that he will keep in touch with me because I have made myself available for his every beck and call. I am a friend, and friends help friends out when they’re low and having problems- it’s what causes you to become better friends.  So please if you’re reading this, keep my friend and his family in your prayers because they all need it- especially him.

Omg, spare me the damn drama!

I have had so much freakin drama over the last month. I’d honestly not talk about it online but lets just say that several people were involved and are still involved. It’s a big giant pain in the fucking ass and I wish it was done with already.

I finally started my novel though- so I guess I needed a big kick up the ass to get it done!

Sinuses and Scheduling

This morning I woke up to find that my eye hurt, and it was the opposite one that I got the cat hair wedged in last night (note to self: don’t rub your eyes after petting either of the cats!) My sinuses have all been out of whack recently after my week long bout with the flu bug that I’m still getting over in one way or another. (It could also be the fact that I’ve not dusted in a while, but that’s something else I need to think about) So I think it could be that, or it could be a blocked tear duct. Either way, it’s annoying and it hurts a fair bit so I hope it’s better by the morning.

Tomorrow starts the week of my bout of help at the church. Wednesday morning I have to take Abby to preschool, and then Wednesday evening I have choir practice. Thursday I’m gonna get in contact with the community builder at the church and see if he needs any last minute help with Friday Fun Night. Friday is praise band practice, plus Friday Fun Night. Saturday is a day off (I THINK!) and then Sunday is church again. I would really love the weeks to not go by so darn quickly, Sunday seems to come around so quick…but since I’m having a better week this week, it should be a little better and I’ll be able to participate more. I had to be dragged to do anything last week and I really hate feeling like that cause I just want to lock myself away in a cardboard box and hide. Hiding is not an option for me cause there’s always someone who needs me, no matter what time of the day and I set myself up for this level of commitment so I need to follow through.

Tee Hee :p

I was trying to talk to my dad over Skype earlier today and he couldn’t hear me for some reason (I don’t think they have Skype set up correctly)- so I made a sign and held it up to the camera. But now the more I look at it, the more it makes sense how I live my life- especially if a song comes on my iTunes that I love. So I made my new WP icon out of the picture, haha.

Turn it up, turn it up!

Dammmnn.

It’s been a REALLY long time since I last posted, but you know I’m putting all the stuff that’s happened this year behind me and I’m moving on. It’s taken me a long while to get over everything, but it’s made me a much stronger person and I’ve learned a lot of important life lessons. I’m living quite happily in my new apartment with Nick, Abby and the kitties and I have some new friends and fallen back on the support of some faithful, old friends. It doesn’t matter how tough life gets, some people will always be there for you and some just can’t wait to watch you fall flat on your face. It’s a bitch, but you learn and move on. 

I’ve been pretty much absorbing everything that I’m good at recently. I’m getting pretty good at playing my guitar, I’ve read a ton this summer, my family were here so I got lots of love from them and I’m going to the UK next August with Abby to see everyone there. I miss my family so much. I’m also on a diet and getting lots of exercise- I work out six days a week and lift weights also. I’m not noticing much difference yet but it’s only been three weeks so I guess I can’t expect miracles :p

Weekend Problems

Today is a Saturday, and I’ve never been a fan of the weekend. I used to love them when I was in school, but as soon as i reached college I hated it because the weekend meant coursework. Now it just means another day with Abby, doing housework and chasing her around the house and stopping her from playing with certain stuff. A few minutes ago, she had an accident on one of the the chairs in the living room and so I had to clean that up. I feel like I do nothing all day, yet I know that I do. If it wasn’t for me, this home would be a complete tip- well, okay, it’s not the cleanest at the moment but that’s mainly to do with the fact that i just don’t have the enrgy to do anything that I’m supposed to.

Anyway, it’s Vicky’s 25th birthday tomorrow and I have no way of calling her (the number I have seems to be out of service) and I used to have her email address, but I’ve lost it. I used to just call up her mum and ask her, but I don’t even know her number either. The only thing I can do is email her and hope that the email address is still in use. 

Well, I’d better go and do some more housework- there’s laundry to fold. Ugh.

Been A Long Time

So much has happened since I last typed anything here. There’s also been some stuff that I’d rather not mention, as I don’t want a flood of comments clogging up my journal. If you’re on FD, you’ll know what I’m talking about. If not, then tough. I’m not telling you. 

So we had finally moved and our new place had started feeling a little bit more homely, and then the shit hits the fan (again, not telling you what went on). I have so much crap in my head that it’s not even funny. I know I’m being really vague about it all, but this entry is public and I’d rather not air my dirty laundry on the Internet where anyone can read it. It’s better for everyone in the end. 

The new place is very nice, we did end up moving into the apartment that I had my eye on and it’s very nice living in this neighbourhood. The park is only down the street for Abby, so we tend to just walk up there together. The neighbours are very nice too, including the one who lives next door to me and has a little girl around the same age as Abby. My mum, dad and brother are going to be here at the end of the month, so i have to get this place in order before then

Moving N Eating

It’s now about two weeks until we move out of this place and into our shiny new one. I. Cannot. Wait. I’ve packing up boxes left and right and we’re still waiting to hear back from the owner of the building we’re moving into so we can actually see our new place. I want to be able to walk in there and envision everything in it’s place and truly start getting excited about it all. The living room is pretty much packed up, the dining room is half done as are the bedrooms, and the kitchen we havn’t even touched yet. So even though I’m sitting here with boxes piled up around me, we’ve still got a heck of a lot more to do. We went to U Haul last night and picked up five small boxes, but they’ve been used now. I really like packing at night, I just put on my iPod and get to work. I fell into bed last night around 1.30am exhausted, but pleased with my progress. If Nick gets some more boxes today, I’m gonna start on the excess glassware and dishes in the kitchen. 

I’m hungry. I fancy some brown rice and veggies for lunch. I’ve been getting into this whole healthy kick recently. It’s not warm enough for me to go running yet, so I’m just trying a better diet for now. Brown rice, veggies, lots of water, whole wheat bread and reduced sugar jam. Lots of other stuff besides, that’s not my entire meal plan :p I still get cravings for things like cheese and chocolate though, so I’ve been indulging them once in a while- as it’s not healthy to just cut out everything you like as then you go mad and gorge yourself stupid and feel like a fat pig. I discovered that the hard way.