Ragin’

I had a really long day yesterday, the dinner with Shannon was amazing and she has a great family. It was nice to spend Christmas Day in that kind of environment because it was like being with my own family again and I miss all that. Shannon’s sister, Laurie is a blast too and she had us all cracking up numerous times and it was really priceless. I don’t think I could have swapped out that evening for anything else planned in the city. Yeah, I know my eyes are closed on the photo- I don’t care.

But I came home around 7.30pm and proceeded to dump my stuff and sit on WoW for a bit. Then I realised that I was getting a bit emotional so I said good night to everyone and excused myself. Watched a movie for a while then started to fall asleep, so I texted a friend and he called me till I realised I was starting to fall asleep on the phone. I excused myself for the second time and then promptly passed out with the cat next to me.

Now this cat is pissing me off unless I let him sleep on my bed and be next to me every second of the day. He is constantly under my feet, trying to trip me up and almost making me fall down the stairs this morning. Last night I got so pissed off at him that I started yelling at him and he rattled the doorknob all early this morning after I let him out the room. I think he wanted me to get up and feed him….hell no! It was 5am and I had been awake for two straight days the day before, so I just wanted to get back in bed and pass out again.  But I finally gave up around 10.30am and then got out of bed, fed him and then ate while sitting on WoW again for a couple of hours.

I then decided that I would take a shower today, because I was probably starting to smell funny so I run the shower and I get in. Ten minutes later, I’m almost done and the hot water runs out. So I’m standing there under the water and it’s FREEZING! So then I just give up, slump to the bottom of the bathtub and proceed to sob while the freezing water pours over me. Ugh.

I just feel like today is going to be a day where everything goes wrong………….pants.

Hulk Smash!!

Oh my gawd, I got so angry tonight. I was in the middle of doing a quest on WoW with a friend and all of a sudden the internet booted me offline and I couldn’t get back on for love nor money. When we’ve called up AT&T in the past, we’ve been told the same things so I tried those first and it kept telling me our login information was incorrect. The more I saw this message, the more the rage built up inside of me. So I tried to call AT&T’s Internet Tech Support. They used to be open 24hrs a day, but when I called at 11.30pm…they were closed. Say what?! That just made me even angrier. I really wanted to break something or rip something up…but I managed to stop myself. I called Nick at work and he helped me to calm down a little. In the end, I gave up…and now I’m watching a movie before I hit the hay…otherwise I know I won’t be able to sleep.

Soothing Waves

I attempted to cook a frozen pizza tonight for dinner and I supposedly screwed it up. For thin crust pizza, I like the crust to be crispy and Nick doesn’t like it like that, so he called my pizza burnt. It was not burnt in the slightest, I just like my pizza to be properly cooked. He prefers his to be undercooked, and there’s nothing more I hate on this planet than undercooked, floppy or soggy food. It makes me want to barf. Seriously. 

So we started arguing about a stupid pizza and I was not in the mood to just stand there and rebuff his insulting comments about my cooking abilities. I know I can’t cook, retard- there’s no need to rub it in. But I’m not going to get any better if he doesn’t let me try. Everytime I screw up, he goes crazy and screams on about the waste of food. Whatever. So I picked up my purse, put on my flip flops and took my house keys off the hook. I needed to get away from him for about an hour so I walked. My walk this time took me down to the beach, and I just stood there like a stuffed chip staring at the waves on the lake. It was really calming to watch the lake, and after about fifteen minutes I walked across the beach and pushing the sand around with my toes. I felt very grounded and relaxed afterwards so I walked home as I felt like I could now deal with his crap.

Luckily for me, I didn’t have to as he was in a different frame of mind when I got home. 

Such a Crab

My husband is the biggest crab ever. Well, at least today he is. He’s been miserable all day long since he pretty much got up out of bed. 

At dinnertime, the eggs got stuck to the pan, so he yelled at them and them proceeded to throw the pan at me. Luckily, I’ve got the reflexes of a cat and dodged it. It was a cast iron pan too, so it could have really done some damage. To be honest, I’m not sure if he would have cared or not. 

Then Abby was being her usual chatty, fidgety self and he gave her a time out for bugging him. I felt so powerless, because if I’d have said anything he’d just yell at me too.

He’s just gone off to work and I’m so thankful, because I’ve been walking on eggshells all day with him being such a miserable grouch. I think he’s the bipolar one in the relationship because I’m never quite sure when he’s going to explode. 

Relationships are hard :( I’m on a diet and all I want to do this evening is eat a bucket of fried chicken and drink lots of beer :(