I really would like everyone would just get off my back for a millisecond. Does no one care about how I feel? I was on the verge of having a nervous breakdown dnd all I’m hearing is how I need to come back to reality and all the shit that helped me to crumble in the first place.
I am honestly not ready to just jump back into the fray of everything….I am sick and I need help. I need to get back to taking my meds and seeing a psychiatrist. I also miss home so much and it’s really not helping because all I do is think about people like my best friend and my parents…and how much I love them. I’m weak, I’m not cut out to being this far from the people I spent most of my life around.
The US is a nice country, don’t get me wrong…but it’s not home and it’s honestly never felt like it. Look, I’m at a point where I know I need help…so why are people trying to block me from getting the help I need? I think I want to go home….I think that’s where I need to start.
Good, you’re finally admitting you need help. Now if only you’d stop running away from the folks who love you and want to help you.
Honestly, you need to head back to the UK and get your act back rogether. Get everything stabilized and then reestablish contact with the world.
But for Heaven’s sake will you please at least find some way to contact Abby?
–David